I’m basically starting off VERY VERY light with my experimentation with the Lord of the Mushroom Kingdom again. I want to dip my toes in the psychedelic waters, familiarize myself with the body high, the subtle in-betweens, and the pre-trip anxiety that jumps up which just from these two small doses seems fairly non-existent. I wish i could grow these little guys on my own. Create my own crop of these little libraries of knowledge and continue to do weekly or monthly sessions of seeing through their perspective. Learning.
I realized that no one should have any fear of that place the mushrooms take you. They look out for you, take care of you, there’s something about us that they enjoy, and our brains were built to chemically dance with them as serotonin sits back and lets the psilocin take over the neuronal firing in your brain. Fear is illogical here. Love is effervescent. Relax and let go.
The rest of the night while the shrooms were subtly invading my perception, i stood in the bathroom noticing how damn bright the lighting was in there, how i could input a task to be carried out by my visual awareness with thought commands and pick specific shapes out of the soup of garbled reality stuff, the giant uncarved block of Reality… “notice all the flowers on the wall paper” … “pick out all things green” … “focus on anything blue” … then i did the usual where i’m amazed at my reflection and the depth of the mirror. How can i see myself? This magical substance throws back to you an image that is supposed to be you, i don’t understand it, but i guess that is me over there. I’m hanging out with myself on the other side of that invisible forcefield. Unbelievable.
Then i light a candle and a coconut incense stick in my room. Laying down, i watch the smoke dance in the candlelight as it formed into a shadowy tornado on the ceiling that gusted its darkness into the low-light, fighting for control. So symbolic, a metaphor for good and evil right in front of me, secretively symbiotic. The shadows playing on the wall, the short visuals behind my eyes as i drift off into my head, “Beautiful Things are coming”… they said. “Beautiful Things…”